It is time I update this blog and get back to business of posting the daily boredum that has taken over my life! I'm holding on tight, keeping my head barely above water right now, trying with all my might not to go down, down, down to that dark place! I try, daily with internal pep talks, to have a positive outlook on my life, my work, my less than stellar situations all around me!! I know, it could be worse- I know... my mother tells me that all. the. time.. I am in NEED of a CHANGE. I have asked Mr. Universe, whom never seems to deliver, for a change!!!! PLEASE!
Anyway, I have a job interview for July 22nd. All those in blog land keep fingers, toes, and eyes crossed that its as promissing as it seems. There are however concerns that accompany this, obviously. Is this really the right market to be leaving a steady, albeit boring, job, an okay pay (if you were entry level), and good benefits and retirement (which really means diddley to me right NOW)? I say "Yes" but everyday on the news they are constantly saying how the job market is so poor, companies are closing their doors leaving hundreds without jobs, etc... My job isnt going away but this new job, is a newly created opening. Sounds a bit scary to me, new position would probably be the first to go in a time of cut backs, ya? no?
Okay on to the bigger issue. For the last, umm, 7 years I have been working in the Public Sector... making zero dollars and struggling to climb the invisible ladder. so... here I sit, with a lot of contacts, knowledge of state and local govt., state agencies, govt. process, budget, who to call, how to play the game (just really not well becuase if I played better maybe I wouldnt be in this situation, ya? no?) and yet im still spinning my wheels in an effort to make a decent salary. I know I need to get out of this seat. Each day it becomes more clear that I am too smart for this position and there is no doubt in my mind that I should have gotten that promotion back in November (wont go back there)....HOWEVER, the question is what do I do... Do I again "start over" leaving the public sector and the contacts, etc... and take a Private Sector job which guarentees better pay but basically will be a start over?? Is this really the change I am yearning for?
The private sector job is an account mangager position for a database marketing firm and my client would be a big pharmaceutical company. Sounds kind of exciting, ya? no?
Im not really starting at the very bottom becuase I have 8 years of experience and they were super cool about transferralbe skills! I think it would be challenging but what if the grass is not greener? Should I be giving up, giving in, and starting over??
HELP!
Okay in other stuff:
Books I'm reading:
Clearly not at the same time but those are then next two on deck. I recently finished - without a map, by Meridith Hall, was not my favorite. A co-worker raved about it so based on her review I couldnt wait to read it... and I continued to read it waiting for it to get as good as she said. I LISTENED (still unsure if that counts towards my book list) to The Friday Night Knitters Club. AWESOME! Actually wished I read this one. Probably one of my favorites, right up there with Jodi Picoult. :)
Other stuff:
Had a series of appointment and still cant lift or do anything really for another 4 weeks. Awesome. I dont know how to sit still. It was very difficult in the beginning but now I feel back to normal and want to be normal and do things like workout (Yes, I said workout!). Since I was told I cant, thats all I want to do... why didnt someone tell me not to a long time ago?
Happy July 4th! Weehoo! I am off from work tomorrow, vacation day. Holiday of Friday, and golf tourney on Monday! Its like a legit vacation! I am going to visit a friend in T-town tomorrow and Friday. Will be sitting poolside (which I can not go in....how unfair!), sunning, and relaxing!
Really thats all the excitement here. I wish I had more. Trust me.
Peace Out- Have a sSafe and Happy Holiday Weekend!
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Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it.